A brief nostalgia

It's been cold outside the past few days, and it reminded me of the Spring, which is just a few months ago, 5 to be exact. But it feels so far away, now that I have my baby, and we are in such a routine. In fact, I barely remember my Summer either. All the days seem to blend together now. I was remembering the blur of it all, the coldness literally melting into Summer. On the warmer days I would take the baby for a walk, and I remember feeling sore still from the birth, so we wouldn't go very far. I would wear baggy clothes because I was embarrassed of my size. So even though the number on the scale has barely budged, I know that I have toned up because the difference I feel from then to now is crazy! I can't believe my baby is 5 months old. I barely remember her being so small. I just love the stage she is at right now though, such a sponge! She's watching everything we do and trying to emulate it. She loves to watch Mom and Dad eat, or drink, and mouths the same as if she too is eating. I'm sure she's wondering why nobody else sucks on a boob for their meals!

Now that the fall is coming, I also remembered last fall. I was 4 months pregnant. I packed up my seasonal business, as the leaves fell from the trees. I remember last October we did a tree climbing thing, and my belly stuck out from the harness. As much as I hated being pregnant; feeling fat and unattractive, the bad breakouts, the upset stomach etc.. I remember last Fall with such fondess, especially now that I have my baby girl, and knowing it was her growing and developing inside me. I used to talk to her when I drove. I would play her music and see if she would kick me back in appreciation. I was so looking forward to last Christmas by this time. I remember thinking that my sister and I would both be pregnant for Christmas! However this year, I too am looking forward to Christmas, for the babies this time though. I can't wait to see my baby girl and her little cousin. Mine will be 9months by then and my sister's, 7 months.

It's days like today that I feel so nostalgic. The crisp air, the leaves (already!) starting to change, and September litterally just around the corner. Back to school is on everyone's mind, and I can't wait to get back to my regular schedule of my Mom group, and having the gym be less crowded etc. Fall is such a time for change, for resolutions, and for reflection. I feel that this Fall I will truly start to get back to myself again. I'm determined to be active both alone and with my baby, and to cook foods from the local market. Yum to Fall and a series of firsts for my baby and me!