A Life Cleanse

I don't know what's come over me, but I've really been interested in 'cleaning up' my life. I started looking through all my mail and sorting it into categories..'action needed' and 'for filing'. I made some calls, went to my local bank and consolidated all my debt, I even found a cheque from my insurance company from when I quit my old car insurance! I feel like the more organized my house and my life is, the better I feel. You know how there are always those lingering stresses in the back of your mind? I feel like I now have a handle on most of them, and especially if I can pay off my debt sooner than later, I'll feel so much better! Right now I can't help but feel like a burden to my husband. I came into this relationship with debt, and now though before I was pregnant I was working 3 jobs to pay it off, now that I have the baby, I'm only getting 55% of my regular income...which just doesn't cut it, plain and simple.

I've also been looking into cleansing my spirit. I looked into a workshop coming to Toronto by Deepak Chopra, and it something I'm really interested in. Also, locally, I found a Buddhist centre that is hosting a (free) Day of Mindfulness. I feel like since I've had my baby girl, I've sort of lost touch with my spirit. My day is just so filled with chores, and baby duties (which I love) but I'm missing that down time when my mind can be still. I used to go for walks every evening as the sun was setting down by the lake.. Now if I go and bring the baby I'm always concerned with her and can't fully appreciate the view and the silence. I also used to meditate every evening before bed, and I just can't seem to find the time anymore. Once the baby is asleep I like to have at least an hour with my husband before going to bed. Anyway, I've made it a conscious thought in my mind to practice more mindfulness and even just enjoying the time spent with the baby instead of having a million other things on the go (and on my mind!).

So I guess my goal for the month of September is to be more mindful, and to clean up my life. I'd like to have a handle on everything by the time the winter comes, and Christmas will be hard this year with no extra funds. I'm hoping that by doing this, I'll find more savings and just an overall clearer mind and happier home.