So it's now September and I'm trying desperately to get back on track. The weather has been so beautiful this past week, and the trees are already starting to turn. This is my favorite part of year. Everything feels so fresh and crisp.

On the diet-front, I'm hopelessly trying to find a routine that works for me. I started counting my calories on this unbelievable FREE website; http://www.my-calorie-counter.com/. I can't get over all the different functions it has and it's all free, which is refreshing. I also like that it contains virtually every food there is, including (and sadly mostly) fast foods. WHICH I'm not eating at the moment anyway... I also have been using http://www.truestarhealth.com/ which is a website that caters to 5 main points of health; nutrition, exercise, sleep, attitude and vitamins. I like this site because it gives you an overall look at your health and wellbeing, and pinpoints why you might not be thriving in your weight loss. In regards to the nutrition aspect, it plans your meals daily, but gives you options to substitute, and also prints you off a grocery list of everything you've chosen for that week! It can't get any more simple than that! I've actually been using this site off and on for the past two years and so my membership is still intact. What I like about it is that it's not a diet, it's more of a lifestyle change. I found even when I was pregnant I would log on to search recipes or just to see how they would cook salmon for example. It also gives you a comprehensive look at how your meals should be broken down; 40% carbs, 30% protiens, 30%fat. The only thing I find lacking in this website in terms of the nutrition plan, is that it doesn't give me the freedom to input anything else that I may have eaten in the day. I guess the point is that you don't eat anything else than what they tell you, but sometimes life throws a surprize at you and you can't ALWAYS stick to the plan...

SO, this is why I've been using a combination of the truestarhealth.com website AND the my-calorie-counter.com website. I find together they give me a good look at what I'm eating, and shouldn't be eating..and how much I've burned off at the gym (from the 2nd website). I'm really hoping that this will help me to boost my weight loss plan and give me the results I desperately want to see!

It's been 6 weeks now of me going to the gym 5 days a week and though I haven't been super strict with my diet, I have not lost 1lb! NOT ONE! Although I can tell that I am getting toned, still, I hate when people say that.."you're gaining muscle". Piss off I want to say! I want to be 10lbs lighter AND gaining muscle..is that possible?

A friend of mine posted pictures of a trip she recently went on, and I couldn't believe her pics of her in a bikini. First of all, she is a mother of 3, and second of all, she hasn't worked out a day in her life! It makes me so jealous / angry / defeated when I see that. I'm not sure what else I can do, especially while I'm breastfeeding I'm afraid of losing too many calories in the day and having no energy, or becoming dehydrated etc. But am I maybe just using that as an excuse? I think I'll try this new plan with the two websites AND continuing to go to the gym 5 days a week and we'll see then if I have results or not..