The Holidays are Joyful!

I woke up this morning feeling better about myself. I'm not sure if it's that Christmas is approaching and so I'm focusing outwardly instead of on myself for a change, but I feel better and when I got dressed, instead of picking out an awkward outfit that used to fit and I try to squeeze into, I gave in a wore a comfortable hoodie with jeans..and to my surprize, I looked in the mirror and looked the slimmest I've looked yet! Which is strange because the scale says I've gained 2lbs. Oh well. My plan is not to be too serious over the holidays, afterwards the gym is closed a lot of the time, the snow is too much for me to exercise outside, and with holiday eating what's the point in trying to diet! BUT, my plan is that after Christmas, I will do a strict diet and exercise regime leading up to my sister's wedding, which is Feb. 06th. That gives me a little over a month to lose my 10lbs..which I think is doable, so long as I stick to the plan. I need to buy my dress, which I think I'll go between Christmas and New Years to get the really good deals. And I'll make sure to buy one size to small which will MAKE me lose the weight. 10lbs would make me so much happier. I wouldn't feel so disgusting when I get dressed in the morning, when I take my baby to the pool, when I visit with my other friends who don't have kids and look fabulous and skinny and don't even NEED to diet! Ughh..Pregnancy really does change your body, it's all worth it though. I am so in love with my little baby girl. She is just so smart and sweet. She's not even 9 months old and we ask "What does Santa say?" And she replies "Ho Ho Ho!" So cute!

I think I need to get it out of my head that I'm still a size 2. My new goal is just to slim out the middle. That's really all I need. I don't care what the scale says, or the size, so long as I'm happy with what the middle looks like in jeans. NO MORE MUFFIN TOP!