I haven't been doing so well lately, which is why I haven't blogged in awhile. I've been really dissapointed in myself, and I keep making excuses for myself. Excuse #1: It's the holidays, Excuse #2: It's snowing outside, and finally Excuse #3 I was sick last week...oh and Excuse #4 my daughter swallowed something in the daycare at the gym..that last one isn't so much of an excuse as it is a reality, and quite frankly I am a little hesitant to bring her back there as it's the 2nd time it's happened. That said, I included it as an excuse because it didn't mean that I had to stop exercising altogether. I have PLENTY of exercise videos at home, the weather was nice enough outside to go for walks up until Saturday, and I could've gone to other programs where I bring her (i.e strollersize). So I'm starting fresh today, and so far so good. I woke up, had breakfast (Cornflakes and coffee..not together). Then when my baby was sleeping I did a 20 minute Yoga Booty Ballet video. For lunch I had homeade chilli and a yogurt for dessert. As a snack this afternoon I had celery sticks with fat free ranch dip. Tonight I'm heading to the gym for my regular weight training class while my Mom watches my baby girl. It's always after the class thats the challenge, as I come home starving and need dinner quickly. That's when I grab something bad for me and it continues on into the night with ice cream, a glass of wine, popcorn etc. I hate that when it gets cold out I automatically want comfort foods. I have been eating tons of warm baked cookies, casseroles and drinking tons of hot chocolate!

My sisters wedding is officially 2 months away and in that time I have to get through Christmas and New Years. I still really want to lose 10lbs, though since I've started this blog I've lost 6lbs which isn't so bad. Still, I think I have more than 4 more go to to be as confident as I used to be.

So there it is, I'm trying to get back on track and I'm really needing some sort of boost of confidence.
I'm not sure what I need to get me going again. It's a feeling I need, that when I crave those crappy foods I can get that feeling or see that image of myself skinny and have the willpower to say no. We'll see..so I have a couple weeks to be good, then Christmas to be bad, then 6 weeks after the holidays to really do damage control! Here goes!