A Lucky Penny?

What is it about these winter blues that make us crave comfort foods? It's been beautiful here lately, with the sun shining and mild temperatures, but yet I still crave carbs, chocolate, and any kind of fattening dish for dinner. Help! I always hate this time of year, yet I do see and end to this winter as time is certainly flying by very quickly.

Tuesday I started my strollersize class again, and all I can say is OUCH!! I was so sore for two days following..it didn't help that I did a class on Wednesday while my Dad visited with the baby, and then back to strollersize again on Thursday..but still, gotta maintain my weightloss!! This morning I took the baby to a free swim at the pool which was fun, and this afternoon I think I'll go for a long walk with her in the sleigh. I'm hoping some fresh air and enjoying some sunshine will boost my mood.

On the job-front, I'm not sure what's happening..I have now applied to 5 jobs, all within my area of expertise, and yet I have yet to hear back from any of them. I have mixed feelings about this. Firstly, I'm relieved to not have to make any decisions about going back to work, but secondly, I can't help but feel a little worthless. I used to be really lucky with jobs, and if I got an interview I always got the job. My resume is great, and I have lots of experience, so now I'm left wondering what it is about me that they don't want? I'm wondering if it's the fact that I have been off for a year, and obviously didn't include why on my resume, but hoping they don't just think I haven't worked? I'm trying really hard to leave it up to fate, and know in the end that whatever happens is for the best..if its a really great job with benefits and good money, then I'll find a great daycare or family member to watch my baby girl and all will be well. If it's that I end up doing my husband's books and staying home with my baby, well hey that sounds great too! I guess I'm just dissapointed because I left a really great job when I lived in the city. We moved up north to raise a family and in a way I gave up my dream. On the other hand a bigger dream of mine was to be a wife and a mother and so I guess the universe heard that dream loud and clear.

I had a dream the other night that I was walking down a long road that was crowded with people, and I bent down and found a penny on the ground so I picked it up, and when I looked at it there was a picture of the Dali Lama on it and four moons over his head..I then said to myself that this must be pretty lucky and put it in my pocket..What do you think that means? Whatever it is, anything that has to do with the Dali Lama and a lucky penny has to be good news right?