Well a lot has changed since my last post..I lasted 2 days on the CSD this time, I was just so stressed with the wedding and job hunting and now that I'm exercising again (I didn't the 1st time I did the CSD) I found that I was starving! So I scratched that, but somehow still managed to lose weight. I'm holding steady at 121 right now, which I am pleased with. Ideally, I'd like to be 115 but I'm willing to look to the 'long haul' for that goal.

Anyway, so my sister's wedding was beautiful! I still can't believe she is married. She looked gorgeous in her dress, and everything went wonderfully. She left for Mexico the next day and my Mom is now watching her baby for the week.

On the job front; I finally got one! It's doing some reception and marketing etc. one day a week, which is Mondays. I found the ad Wednesday morning and emailed my resume, then I got a call back that day to come for an interview the following day. When I went in I got hired on the spot. Whew! And I was starting to worry about my resume and my qualifications. I started yesterday, for a half day for training, and my poor Mom watched both babies..She did great though, and surprizingly I didn't feel really guilty about leaving the baby. Although it was only for the morning..we'll see what happens when it's for the whole day. But she had a great time, and when I got there to pick her up, she crawled to the door and reached her arms up with a huge smile and said 'MOMMY!'. Warmed my heart.

Because the job is on Mondays, I had to switch our swimming lessons to Saturday mornings, which works out better cause then hubby can take the baby sometimes too. I really think I'm going to like this job, and I think it can potentially grow into full time once I feel comfortable leaving the baby for that long. Ideally, I didn't want to go back to work, but lets face it, I'm not rich, and I have bills to pay. AND I'd like to get pregnant again in the next year or so, so I needed a plan for the future to ensure my family is secure. It's not fun leaving your child to be raised by someone else during the day, but you do what you have to to survive right?

Anyway, I'm feeling much more content this week, I feel like it's a good balance right now..One day I'm speaking with adults all day and actually applying myself in ways I haven't in a long time. And other days (like this morning) I get to go to strollersize or my Mom group or even for a nice long walk with the baby if the weather is good. Fate has a funny way of choosing the path that best suits your needs. I figure now that I didn't hear back from those other jobs because they were all full time positions, and to be honest I would've taken them because I was desperate! But I don't want to work full time, and I don't need to right now. Part time is all I need to get by, and that way I don't have to pay rediculous daycare fees too. The funny thing is that on Saturday, after I already accepted the job, I DID get a call from one of the places I applied and they were looking for someone 3-4 days a week. The lady on the phone seemed really nice and again, I would've taken it had I not already accepted this other position. But you know when you go into an interview, if it's a right fit, the people strangely seem familiar already to you. As if you have already met them, or maybe it's just your future waiting for you to catch up.

Either way, when I walked into this office I just knew it was the right choice for me. So here goes another chapter in my life. I really do try to reflect on every job I've had and how it has affected my life, and I'm excited to see why I've been brought together with these people, and how they will help me move forward in my life as well.