I've been trying to be more spiritual lately. It seems with the nice weather, I'm feeling guilty about staying indoors and watching television. I feel like I'm wasting my days, and not appreciating what each day has to offer. Therefore, if it's sunny, you can find me outside. Not only that, but the fresh air is making the baby sleep wonderfully! Today I took her for a long walk in the a.m and to the park in the afternoon and she had beautiful naps, and still went down at her regular bedtime! She's been sleeping through the night which is heaven, I tell you. My dreams have been so vivid, probably because my body hadn't drifted into that deep of a sleep since before she was born..I'm starting to feel more alive again.

In the evenings, I've started reading instead of watching television, or playing on the computer. I used to spend my night playing a silly scrabble game online, or watching a t.v show that I wasn't even interested in, just out of sheer boredom and not wanting to give in to sleep just yet. So now I'm trying to find books that awaken my spirit, and so far I'm coming up short. So instead, I've decided to re-read books that I've loved in the past, hoping to awaken something in me that it was acomplished. And if / when I get a good recommendation, I'll switch to new books again.

Tonight, as I was doing my nightly duties; cleaning up toys, finishing the laundry, tidying up from dinner etc. I remembered that I left the stroller out from our walk to the park earlier. So as I crept out to the driveway in the still-night air, I realized for the first time in a long time that the stars are so beautiful right above us. We live in the most beautiful part of Ontario, and possibly even Canada, or dare I say..the World? Okay maybe not THAT beautiful, but to me it's all I need. I passed up city life for this enchanting place, and it's so sad that I hadn't noticed the stars in so long..I must not go out in the evenings anymore, or if I do it's just from my car to my destination and back home again. After seeing that tonight I want to make a conserted effort to take time out to look at the stars. It gave me this strange feeling like if everyone stops paying attention to this beauty, will it all just end? Are we taking it for granted? I feel the same about nice days now too.