This week my computer crashed, my cell phone died after just being charged, and our dvd player at our camp stopped working...all of this has lead, ok pushed me to really think about what's important in my life. When the computer crashed I immediately got angry. Then I started thinking about all the things I needed to do this week which I need my computer for...then I started realizing how much I use it when everytime I had a free moment I would automatically turn to use it and think 'oh ya..now what'. I'll tell you I got a hell of a lot of chores done this week! Then my cell phone died, which honestly I don't use that much, but once again I went to grab it a few times and thought 'oh ya...' And would either pick up the telephone, or forget about whatever it was I was going to text about..And lastly, this past weekend we went up to our camp up north and our DVD player stopped working.. Not only that but there is also a fire ban on and so we couldn't sit out in front of the fire either..With absolutely nothing to do after the baby went to bed, hubby and I looked at eachother, shrugged and were in bed by 9:30pm. Well I should be honest here and say that we used his computer in bed to watch a movie we've seen a hundred times.. So what is it about technology that is so addictive? Are we that bored with ourselves and eachother that we can't carry on conversations anymore? Or when home alone, why is it that the first thing we do is reach out to some sort of technology that will connect us to the world again?

I started wondering what it would be like back in the day before all of this technology was around..what if we were just up north because we took our horse and buggy there..Then whoever was with us enjoyed our company, and those that weren't had no way to reach us and so they just didn't. It would make some things so much easier...no running into online pictures of exes, or posting comments you wish you could take back..none of that would be of worry, and you could just live your life..whatever that life entails without technology I'm not sure...I guess that's why people had more babies back then, because at 9:30 when the sun goes down and with no t.v, phone or internet.....enough said.

Anyway, I'm assuming the universe is trying to tell me something by shutting down all my technology connections to any outside world, so I've decided to make more of an effort not to use such devices as often. My computer is still in getting fixed (yes this is hubby's computer..and no I couldn't wait to post until I got mine back..) When it does come back, I think I'll only allow myself twice a day on it (unless it's work related)..Twice a day to check my facebook, hotmail, banking etc. And to make sure I don't check it more often I'll actually shut it off..and put it away...in a closet...with a lock...and a lock on the door to the room with the closet...and maybe I'll just lock myself out of the house just to be safe.

I'm off to look at the stars, feel the air on my skin, listen to the birds, and well, just be.